i belong to Jesus.

haha. i know i'm really outdated, but i found this pics on net recently only. the cute guy in the pic is none other than Kaka, after AC Milan won the match against Liverpool last year i think. correct me if i'm wrong.

i really admire him for his courage to stand up for God amidst all the hype after winning. rather than self-praising, or throwing off shirt to show off the well-built body like other athletes normally do, he threw off his shirt to reveal another shirt, "I belong to Jesus"; he gave glory to Jesus.

God bless you, Kaka. (:

real love defined.

the epitome of true love.......one of the few solid definitions of love. all, but, in just one picture.

certainly a picture that paints a thousand million words.

so old and still going strong. look at them holding hands with contentment shown on their face. just so sweet!


it gets me thinking. how often do we still see this scenario on streets?

flesh is weak.

Matthew 24 : 41

New American Standard Bible
"Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak."

God's Word @ Translation
"Stay awake, and pray that you won't be tempted. You want to do what's right, but you're weak."


i posted up two same verses with different translation so that the meaning will be clearer and easier to understand.

currently, this verse speaks alot to me. i went through a bunch of messed up thoughts today as i quarantined myself in the room the whole day.. (except when i had to eat my lunch and dinner) i realised, many a time i had the will and determination to do something, to change my ways, but i always end up in the same old spot; the black spot on a white piece of paper. each time i make a change of mind to change my ways, i would be so full of hope and strength........well, at least for a few days. then, i would begin to forget and forgo everything i should hold on to; i fall into the devil's temptation again.

and the cycle repeats and repeats and repeats.

it's kind of funny actually. i know all the steps and facts i should know to change my ways. in fact, i even advised people on this matter before, yet, now that i'm in this situation, i can barely pull myself out of it.

i know i should rely on God, ask Him for strength to carry on, to pray, to be strong-willed in changing my ways...but i don't. i know with human effort i'll fail, yet i insist on going on with only my imperfect human strength.

sigh..

now i'm like a bonfire dying off due to lack of woods..... i need refill! wood refill....God's wood refill to carry on, and to stop giving in to the devil!

one day... one day i will be able to smirk at the devil and tell him, "hah. LOSER!"

just wait for that day, devil. just you wait.

and then, i can praise my almighty God forever and ever...without feeling ashamed or guilty. (:


anyways, CF camp is coming up! can't wait! haha.. it's gonna be exciting and refreshing. Hillsongs' coming too! in 2 days time.. sadly can't go. oh wells..


good day, peeps! :D

a combination of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde?

a Two-face human.

last-minute superstar.

i always have the tendency to prolong my projects till the very last day of the dateline (including exams). doing last minute work is just very worth it you know, because seriously, you'll get the same end product of what other people do, so why go through all the hassle? ..yeah, that's what i've thought throughout my years in high school.

but this year, This very year, life proved me and my lazy mindset wrong. the on-going mid-term exam slapped, and is still slapping me in my face, practically screaming "HELLO??!! you can't possibly cram so many info into your void head now!"

really. i barely understand any concept, i don't remember formulas, so practically, i have nothing but nuts in my head! okay, so i have a mass called Brain inside my head, but yea, it's filled with nothing. nothing, baby. Nothing! nada.

at least last year form 4, there were so few chapters to study. i could burn the midnight oil and revise the subject on the night before whatever-exam-it-was and still attain great results. now, yes, i can achieve "great" results. i can fail with flying colours and be called a blond....or in a Malaysian way, lalamui - not in fashion sense, but in academics ya know. cause lalamuis tend to get failing grades and all, due to their disgusting-wannabe-CUTE-with-the-guys and their inability to think normally, especially in fashion. stop the 1,2,3,4,5, finger-sticking-on-your-face in the pictures before a Normal human being tells you off in your face. and pleaaseeee, DO NOT misinterpret it as "i think she/he is jealous of me!". same goes to the lalazais. normal people can only tolerate certain amount of stupidity. go back to kindergarten and learn your colours and numbers, kiddo.

ANYWAYS. back to topic. (gee, i strayed so far.)

so i call myself a last-minute superstar, Not superwoman. why? because i'm well-known for being Ms. Last-Minute, but i don't always happen to get away doing it. i am powerless. and i ain't no superwoman.


i guess as we grow up, we have to put a stop to doing work last minute. time management is essential, and nobody's gonna hire me in future if i keep this going. so, CHANGE, ANDREA!


say NO to Last-Minute work.

must. must. must.

lazing around on my very soft and comfy bed, i decided i should do some updating while i'm still inspired, before i slack off or procrastinate (like i always do).

i'm being a lil not-me anymore nowadays, it's like i'm being someone else, someone alien. i hardly talk, i hardly smile, i hardly burst into paroxysms of laughter. i feel no euphoria. perhaps, i'm being affected by everything that is going on right now in school...in prefects. sigh.

anyway, i'm still in the middle of exams, and really, i'm doing no good. i've been a Garfield these few days, well fed, and well lazy too. mum's taking extreme good care of me, cutting mangos for me, grinding juices, and here i am, being an ungrateful child by going online and flunking exams.


guilty as charged.


i must change. i must. i must. i must!



and i was being Meredith just now, thinking of my very own McDreamy and McSteamy, after having a real good quality time with mum, talking about her love life back in the old days.
boys......the distractions they bring. xD


before i go off, please, whoever you are, come for SMKB CF Camp in June! God is going to do mighty things among us. keep the CF camp in prayer too, will ya? thanks a biggie bunch. (:

Unending Love..

It's ironic how each time i'm absent in school, there'll always be something big happening. Just.......weird.

Well, i was up in Genting when Juin Hoong called me and told me the Big News. to say i was shocked would be a lie..........cause i wasn't even close to shocked; i was all calm and normal. no breathing difficulty, no "WHAT! OMGosh!".

Yea, no whatsoever.

In fact, i smiled; i sort of half expected it to happen, but just not as soon as i imagined. they've been giving many signs all this while actually, the "this is the last thing i'm gonna do" sentence, the "look", etc....... Plus, it is really time for them to take a break, especially KJ. As a friend(if he still consider me as one. lol), i felt happy for him, but as my prefect self, i felt terribly at loss.

Haha. But imagine if Lembaga Pengawas were to be a famous board, they would have made the headlines in newspaper today.

"IS THIS A JOKE? 3 ASSISTANT HEAD PREFECTS, TOGETHER WITH A TREASURER BACKED OUT YESTERDAY"

or in news report on tv...

"Breaking news, live from SMKB. 4 respected senior prefects have made their move. They resigned yesterday and was seen wearing normal students' uniform. Many are wondering, many are asking. Everyone's curious.

"why?" "what has happened?".

As for now, reasons to why this sudden incident has happened is yet to be known..."


lol.
Anyway, back to topic. After we ended our conversation, it finally dawned to me that it IS a Big Thing.

"what are we gonna do?" I asked myself repeatedly.

Since my parents were with me in the hotel room, i told them right away about this thing.

and they went like,


"YOU SHOULD HAVE FOLLOWED THEM!"

LOL. and they started nagging me to resign too. haha.


I know it's pretty hard to believe, but i came to school with quite a heavy heart actually. i thought to myself, "isn't this such an irresponsible act by them?" "how can they leave us like this?" (*note that i wasn't very clear about everything at that time, since i've only heard the story from JH.)

Until now, i still say that it IS a very irresponsible act by them. (seriously, i don't see why Jian Lim, Wai Ken, and Nyin Hui had to resign.. but i believe that as time goes by, i will learn) As for KJ, i can't deny that he has a solid reason to do what he did.

I've also heard about what they said in the meeting with seniors yesterday, about their personal reasons and all to why they did this.

want to have a piece of my own mind?

it's all down to MISCOMMUNICATION. (if you don't understand what i'm saying, it's okay. cause i know you won't understand. if you do, kindly keep it to yourself. haha.)

sighh..





life would definitely be better if everyone took the time to understand one another, build each other up with words of encouragement rather than piercing words. Most importantly, life would be best if everyone was truthful to each other. So no rough assumptions would be made, and there will be no wrong thoughts and choices done..







if.........and only if.






(i'll be doing a tribute to 4 of them in my next post regardless whether they are able to read it or not to remember all their hard work, effort, sweat, strength, encouragement, ideas, etc....to remember at least a little of what they've done so much for us..........for LP.)





but one thing i know, and i will always know.........no matter where we go, or what we do, in 10, 20, 30, 40, or even a 100 years later, we, the prefects of SMKB, AJK 2007/2008, still have one thing in common.




WE LOVE LP. AND WE'LL ALWAYS LOVE LP.













"now i hate LP. because i once loved LP"

the last words of Senior Wen Pin before he retired..





shucks, i'm dropping tears already!

everything is new.

i've got a new blogskin! this time, i chose something pretty simple. i took it from one of the blog's basic template and edited the html here and there, thus, the new blog look! (:

this new look is more matured than the previous one. and simpler too...that is if you realise. this makeover thingy is actually my first step to changing for the better.

what do i mean for the better?

well, starting from here onwards, i'm going to stop blogging about the apek aka number 2. (fyi, it's a guy whom i have a crush on.). i've found much more meaningful things to blog on, for instance, my journey in life with God by my side. i realised, how much i miss walking through life with Him guiding my every step.

after i stopped going for youth services on saturday (due to tuition and unavailability), my faith went down the drain altogether with my relationship with God. oh yes, my excuse may sound valid enough to not go on saturday, but it's still mere excuses. my ego made me think that without going to church, i can still be strong in faith. i was definitely still strong for few months......but now, i barely do my devotions.

hence, the new blog outlook. and a new change of heart. a step closer to maturity, perhaps?

in this blog, i want to speak fervently about the One i love, Jesus. the ups and downs i go through. the One who loves me so much so He never fails to pick me up each time i fall.
i wanna keep my faith alive. i want to give my all to Him.


"Astounding."


His miracles in my life. His wondrous works. His amazing grace.


"for no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has in store for those who love Him. 1 Corinthians 2:9"


surprise me, Lord. (:


for the old has gone, the new has come.




ps. no worries. i'll still be blogging about school and all. haha. i'll still humour you faithful readers of mine. heheh. and you like my new pic? the fireworks... took it during Independence Day 2007 at Putrajaya. :)


for the sake of remembrance, i shall post my previous blog skin picture here.