flesh is weak.

Matthew 24 : 41

New American Standard Bible
"Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak."

God's Word @ Translation
"Stay awake, and pray that you won't be tempted. You want to do what's right, but you're weak."


i posted up two same verses with different translation so that the meaning will be clearer and easier to understand.

currently, this verse speaks alot to me. i went through a bunch of messed up thoughts today as i quarantined myself in the room the whole day.. (except when i had to eat my lunch and dinner) i realised, many a time i had the will and determination to do something, to change my ways, but i always end up in the same old spot; the black spot on a white piece of paper. each time i make a change of mind to change my ways, i would be so full of hope and strength........well, at least for a few days. then, i would begin to forget and forgo everything i should hold on to; i fall into the devil's temptation again.

and the cycle repeats and repeats and repeats.

it's kind of funny actually. i know all the steps and facts i should know to change my ways. in fact, i even advised people on this matter before, yet, now that i'm in this situation, i can barely pull myself out of it.

i know i should rely on God, ask Him for strength to carry on, to pray, to be strong-willed in changing my ways...but i don't. i know with human effort i'll fail, yet i insist on going on with only my imperfect human strength.

sigh..

now i'm like a bonfire dying off due to lack of woods..... i need refill! wood refill....God's wood refill to carry on, and to stop giving in to the devil!

one day... one day i will be able to smirk at the devil and tell him, "hah. LOSER!"

just wait for that day, devil. just you wait.

and then, i can praise my almighty God forever and ever...without feeling ashamed or guilty. (:


anyways, CF camp is coming up! can't wait! haha.. it's gonna be exciting and refreshing. Hillsongs' coming too! in 2 days time.. sadly can't go. oh wells..


good day, peeps! :D